Website and More

Website is up and running, although it might be shut down soon because the semester is over, so take a look while you still can!
digital.mica.edu/ff210_08/swolfe
note: If you're using Internet Explorer, the video won't run. Anything else should be fine.

Tomorrow I have a 7am train to NJ/NYC, going to see a show with Kristi, then possibly home.
Today I went to an abandoned haunted mental hospital.
I have so much stuff to do before tomorrow morning.

End of Semester Portfolio Highlights

Drawing I

female figure, charcoal

backlit jar, charcoal

male figure, charcoal

paper composition, charcoal

backlit sled through fabric, charcoal

chair, charcoal

mexican skeleton, charcoal

Painting I (there is more, but i haven't photographed anything else yet)

self portrait oil sketches

complicated still life, oil

better picture of self portrait, oil


All of this (and more) will be on my portfolio website which is my final project for EMAC meaning it will be up and running by Thursday at 4pm.

Six Moments in the Author's Life

Part One:
Walking off a train in the pouring rain with a final project and nothing to cover it with,
holding a bag of wooden stretcher bars 3ft. and 2ft., a laptop, and various other items,
and walking about a mile back to the apartment.
Did I mention it's raining?

Part Two:
Okay, well, my final project for Drawing class is ruined, but at least I can stretch this canvas and get that over with and feel better about my life.
Stretcher bars won't fit together-
find something to use as a hammer...glass jar full of rubber cement glue
...shatters

Part Three:
Noticing broken glass glued to my hand and the ground, with a nice mound of glue on the ground, when trying to get it off my hand, the glass cuts my skin and my hands starts bleeding.

Part Four:
Apartment-mate announces she is moving out. Proceed to sneak into her room with the intent of examining future single bedroom when I find a letter to whomever deals with these things explaining why the request to change rooms. Letter explains that I, and Gemma, are creating an environment impossible to work in, never go to class, never do homework, and basically are filthy bums that treat her like a mother and don't deserve to be here. Cry.

Part Five:
Realize the letter makes her sound stupider and psycho more than it makes me sound like any less of a person, but decide to call my mom anyway. Cry again because that's what moms are there for.

Part Six:
Eat some s'mores and feel a whole lot better. Make the nicest fucken home made canvas you've ever seen. work, work, work, work, work, work, work.




Dream Last Night (just because it interested me)
There was a long introduction, but I don't have to go into that because it was mostly feelings being visualized so it wouldn't make much sense to anyone that's not me.
As a foreward: College life is just summers between high school so I still go to LVPA, I'm just not there right now.
So the family is in the living room with the principal from LVPA, a very plump man, talking so casually to us about his very strong opinions a number of things and finally yells out something to the effect of "women have smaller brains than men". At that my brother, Bryce, gets so angry at him because he's my principal and that means he's not going to give me, being a woman, a fair education. So Bryce stands up and says fuck you strongly to him as he flicks him off. The principal gets so upset and offended that he says something about forget me ever going to LVPA again, it's back to Parkland for me. The very thought of stepping foot into Parkland ever again frightens me so much I start crying uncontrollably and am paralyzed. I have no idea what to do, all I know is that my life is going to take a very, very different turn when the time comes that I have to go back to Parkland.
After that, though we all go to the zoo. We pass a few animals, but then we get to a cage filled with miniature pandas! Seriously they're so tiny they could probably fit in your hand and there are tons and tons of them in each cage (there's two cages). The excitement over these animals makes me so happy I hug Bryce, but then am so happy I can't even control myself and forget about how angry I am and give the principal a hug. He just happens to be standing there, haha. Anyway, hugging him just makes me feel so much better because he's such a big guy, and I feel like a little kid, and I feel so happy.
Then I started to have real thoughts and woke up.

Oral Dentistry

stitches removed without any complications
the doctor called me 'a good healer'
=]

Goals for the week

Today - buy paper for drawing project, outline drawing, possibly more
Tomorrow - work more on drawing, hopefully, or research paper
Wed. - more drawing
Thursday - finish research paper
Friday/weekend - painting, ink drawing, drawing

Hopefully this works, at least I have everything done for my portfolio review today.


2 night Self Portrait, oil paint

I'm reading Me Talk Pretty One Day, David Sedaris is the funniest man alive. We (me, my roommate, and a few friends) have David Sedaris storytime a lot in my bedroom.
I'm also in the process of knitting a patchwork blanket. The patchwork part is done, but now I'm knitting a fuzzy lining so it'll be extra warm, and I still need to do the border.
Tomorrow I get my stitches out which is really good because every time I eat or brush my teeth all I can think about is the image of my stitches being ripped out by whatever I'm eating.

Last night I had a dream that there was a big party at home and everyone was there all my friends from home, people that I'm not even friends with, but went to high school with or were friends of my friends, and all my friends here and people I'm not even friends with here, but see around a lot. It was lots of fun, but then I woke up.
Yesterday I dreamt that I was with Kristi and Margot and they told me to put the eggs we were going to eat in the washer and dryer and I kept saying that didn't seem right that you would wash your food with soap the same way you wash your dishes, but they kept reasoning it with logic and I felt stupid for thinking it wouldn't work in the first place. So we washed our eggs in the washer and dryer.

The night before last was a very strange one indeed. I had spent the whole day working on projects, it was 8pm and the heater in our room had put Gemma to sleep already so I decided to watch the graduate by myself and make popcorn. It was really cute, actually. So then Jackie and her boyfriend and all of her friends came in and were like "Oh, is that the Graduate?" and I asked them if they wanted to watch it with me, in an effort to mend our broken relationship. What I didn't realize was that they were all drunk and had no interest in watching the movie, but a lot of interest in talking about it really loudly so that I couldn't hear it, which it was my first time seeing it so that was muchly unappreciated.
In addition to this, they continued taking shots and drinking and such and bickering and telling inside jokes, so I just sat there and listened to everything. Gemma woke up, came out to see what was going on, couldn't take it anymore and went back inside our room. Finally, Matt turned off Simon and Garfunkel and put on his iPod, Flogging Molly, and everyone left...including me. End of night. Will our apartment-mate friendship ever be renewed? Probably not.

Also, Facials

Money Issues

I don't know what to do. I woke up in the middle of the night realizing all of the shit I need to do today and couldn't sleep because of it. There's seriously so much.
So the plan was to go early to Utrecht to buy supplies, and then the whole day just work on things. I had a whole plan for what I'm going to do and in what order and everything. I decided to check my bank accounts first to make sure I had money to buy the things I need to complete (or even start) my final projects. But my bank account is in the negative 200's, and when I looked at transactions it doesn't make sense because they charged me insufficient funds fees for five or six things that i still had money for when i charged them, but because they charged me insufficient funds fees, now i don't have money. I don't understand at all, it doesn't make sense, I never actually went over, but I can't even call them because it's Sunday.
I'm already stressing out about this shit, and now I can't even do anything about it.
I can't start my painting without canvas
I can't do my two other ink drawings without paper
I can't do my 6-7 drawings without drawing paper
The only thing I can do is my research paper which isn't due till Friday, and everything else is due before that and it's the one thing I don't want to do at all, which is only going to make me more angry and I don't even see how I can concentrate on doing a research paper when I know I have all of this other SHIT TO DO.
I even want to do it and am looking forward to doing all of these other projects, I just can't.
And when I called my mother, she yelled at me about not having a job which makes me feel even shittier because I want a job, in fact I want more than one job, so it's like she's yelling at me about not being good enough to get something that I already want and am trying to get. We had decided together in the beginning of the year that I wouldn't have a job this semester because I didn't know if I would have time for one, but for money reasons, I recently realized I needed one so have been trying to get one, but how can she yell at me now for not having had one at the beginning of the year? I understand that I need money, okay? And in addition to that she wants me to pay her back for all the money she's given me for art supplies so even when I do have a job, I won't even get that money for next semester's supplies.
Right now, I don't even want to be in college. I don't want to fail my classes because I didn't have money to buy the supplies to do the projects. This is bullshit, fuck you bank.

In Progress (work weekend)

JOBS
1. Attempted to go to an interview at 7 Eleven, but got there too late, which is really disappointing because I really want to work there
2. Hospital hasn't called me back, but I applied to be a full time third assistant chef! And also one of those people that deliver food to the rooms.
3. Possibly will apply to On The Hill, cute little overpriced cafe across the street.
4. AMC says they're not hiring, even though they emailed Kelly and said they would hire me...I thought.

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Two of four in a series. The one on the left needs to get darker, the one on the right is close to being done, but not there are a few things that are bothering me about it. Any feedback would be much appreciated.
Each one is done to depict a different mood. They're done to different music in different settings, and with different techniques.
Left is anger Right is relaxation. Two to come are depression and happiness.
Anger has been done to Against Me! and Animal Collective hung on a wall with me throwing ink at it from across the room with a dark wash over the whole thing.
Relaxation was first done to Elliott Smith, Devendra Banhart, and Kaki King on the floor of my living room.
They're not how I thought they would turn out and I don't know if they're working, but they're so much fun to work on. Each one is 3 ft.
So again, any feedback, much appreciated because this is basically what I'm working on this weekend, with intervals of my drawing project. Maybe I'll post some of those, too.